Here In My Life

I have never walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet but
At your Word Lord, I’ll receive Your
Faith to walk on oceans deep

And I remember how You found me
In that very same place
All my failing surely would've drowned me
But You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus you’re the reason
I’m kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life?

You have said that all the heavens
Sing for joy at one who finds
The way to freedom, truth of Jesus
Bought from death into His life

And I remember how You saw me
Through the eyes of Your grace
And though the cost was Your beloved for me
Still you made a way

I feel old.

My birthday is coming up
(6 days to the 1st of November)

Though I don't really feel that it is.
I want to arrange celebrations, but sadly Im not sure if I can- no time, and we might not be able to afford it.

i'm missing a lot of people, and just seeing them and being with them is a good enough present for me.



But, putting aside all the drama, I feel satisfied today. This week was one of the most exciting ones I've ever had.
No classes, we won our debate, we even performed well during today's concert/musical presentation which was our quarterly test in music- despite the fact that we didn't practice much. Plus, its sembreak already and when we get back to school on Nov. 5 it'll be the start of our sportsfest.

Im quite doubtful that i'll have an awesome sembreak ,though.

Boy, I sure hope im wrong.

And God Spoke...

"Come to Me, all you who are weary and heavy burdened, and I will give you rest.

Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

For my Yoke is easy and my burden is light."
-Matthew 11: 28-30

God has left me in awe once again.
Just yesterday I cried myself to sleep because I wanted peace, and just this day He has granted me just that.

As God watched me sleep He sent a vision to my Values Ed. teacher.
The next morning that teacher look everywhere for me, until he found me and relayed to me his dream.

He told me that it was very brief: a picture of me on a stetcher- dead. The doctor said it was due to over-fatigue, stress.. and some medical terms he forgot.
He then laid his hand on my head and prayed for me- I couldn't hold back my tears.
As he did, I felt God wrap His arms around me telling me " I'm here princess, you don't have to worry about a thing."

The main reason why I was crying is not that i was afraid of his vision, but i was amazed how God answered my prayer so quickly.
Not only has He given me peace, but He gave me joy as well.

All Glory and Honor and Praise be unto Him.ü

My heart is weary.

Im tired.
So many things to do. People to talk to. Places to go. Tests to take. Plans to fulfill.

My strength is slowly begining to fail me. My spirit- getting weaker by the moment.
Im afraid that one of these days my body just won't be able to take it anymore and give up.

Even my skin is starting to cave in.

I long for peace. Peace within my soul. At the moment.. God seems so distant. Im realizing that lately i've been relying on my own strengths rather than trusting Him.

I hope i haven't drifted too far away from Him..

"God, i know you're there, and i'm sorry I haven't been trusting You. I know that without You, I am nothing... So I ask that You grant me peace. Let my mind be at ease, let my soul rest in You. Comfort my weary heart, Lord. Renew my strength and grant me wisdom in the things i do and say. let my speech and actions always reflect You. May You always be glorified in my life, Lord.
Im sorry. I love you.. I really do, Lord. Help me..

In Jesus' Name,
Amen."