Here In My Life

I have never walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet but
At your Word Lord, I’ll receive Your
Faith to walk on oceans deep

And I remember how You found me
In that very same place
All my failing surely would've drowned me
But You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus you’re the reason
I’m kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life?

You have said that all the heavens
Sing for joy at one who finds
The way to freedom, truth of Jesus
Bought from death into His life

And I remember how You saw me
Through the eyes of Your grace
And though the cost was Your beloved for me
Still you made a way

I feel old.

My birthday is coming up
(6 days to the 1st of November)

Though I don't really feel that it is.
I want to arrange celebrations, but sadly Im not sure if I can- no time, and we might not be able to afford it.

i'm missing a lot of people, and just seeing them and being with them is a good enough present for me.



But, putting aside all the drama, I feel satisfied today. This week was one of the most exciting ones I've ever had.
No classes, we won our debate, we even performed well during today's concert/musical presentation which was our quarterly test in music- despite the fact that we didn't practice much. Plus, its sembreak already and when we get back to school on Nov. 5 it'll be the start of our sportsfest.

Im quite doubtful that i'll have an awesome sembreak ,though.

Boy, I sure hope im wrong.

And God Spoke...

"Come to Me, all you who are weary and heavy burdened, and I will give you rest.

Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

For my Yoke is easy and my burden is light."
-Matthew 11: 28-30

God has left me in awe once again.
Just yesterday I cried myself to sleep because I wanted peace, and just this day He has granted me just that.

As God watched me sleep He sent a vision to my Values Ed. teacher.
The next morning that teacher look everywhere for me, until he found me and relayed to me his dream.

He told me that it was very brief: a picture of me on a stetcher- dead. The doctor said it was due to over-fatigue, stress.. and some medical terms he forgot.
He then laid his hand on my head and prayed for me- I couldn't hold back my tears.
As he did, I felt God wrap His arms around me telling me " I'm here princess, you don't have to worry about a thing."

The main reason why I was crying is not that i was afraid of his vision, but i was amazed how God answered my prayer so quickly.
Not only has He given me peace, but He gave me joy as well.

All Glory and Honor and Praise be unto Him.ü

My heart is weary.

Im tired.
So many things to do. People to talk to. Places to go. Tests to take. Plans to fulfill.

My strength is slowly begining to fail me. My spirit- getting weaker by the moment.
Im afraid that one of these days my body just won't be able to take it anymore and give up.

Even my skin is starting to cave in.

I long for peace. Peace within my soul. At the moment.. God seems so distant. Im realizing that lately i've been relying on my own strengths rather than trusting Him.

I hope i haven't drifted too far away from Him..

"God, i know you're there, and i'm sorry I haven't been trusting You. I know that without You, I am nothing... So I ask that You grant me peace. Let my mind be at ease, let my soul rest in You. Comfort my weary heart, Lord. Renew my strength and grant me wisdom in the things i do and say. let my speech and actions always reflect You. May You always be glorified in my life, Lord.
Im sorry. I love you.. I really do, Lord. Help me..

In Jesus' Name,
Amen."

It's Only Getting Better

Is it that time again?
It was on this day when I decided that I've had enough..
No more being a hopeless romantic, no more wishing of something that might not happen, no more tears and cold nights.

Today, I celebrate one year of being Joyfully, Productively and Creatively single.
I remember a year ago when I made this decision. I was worried how things would turn out.
But now.. I look back, and i just laugh.. It was really such a silly thing to cry about. because seeing how my life is now..

I couldn't be any happier...

And I can't wait to see what other things God has in store for me.

Happy Anniversary to me.ü

She said what?!

A certain someone once asked me if I was going to do a commercial because another someone told her I was..
and I was all.. "What? Sino may sabi?"
"Wala.. chismis lang"

Call me overreacting, but this is what I don't like about gossip. Don't get me wrong. I'm not pointing my finger at anyone here, this idea just came out after the whole thing happend.

In Ephesians 4:29 the bible teaches us to use our tongues to edify. ("Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benifit those who listen.") This basically means; and I quote from the age-old saying: "If you don't have anything GOOD to say, then don't say anything at all."

Lucky for me, the "chismis" wasn't really malicious.
But.. what if it was?
Well.. as I have learned in a family devotion once, gossip is a form of lying.
When we withhold information from others.. or exaggerate a story.. we are in sin.
Why? because we bear false against our neighbors. ("Now where did I hear that again?"- check out: Exo. 20:16) And what we fail to realize is that our lying can affect a lot of people! And instead of bringing each other up, our gossip tends to pull each other down. And as I have learned what you say can really go a long way. (talking from my "300" movie experience - don't ask) Sometimes we don't even mean to mislead others.. but because someone at some point added or subtracted information.. not only do WE get misled, but we mislead others.

Ever wonder why the gossip column page on magazines or the gossip segments on tv shows all talk about the negative things a person has done? Lets face it: we like to talk about other people, but we don't want other people to talk about US.

As my dad reminds my brother and myself sometimes:
"What's the matter? You dish it out, but you can't take it in?"

So how do we avoid being gossiped about?
It has to start with US. I remeber my mom telling me "If you don't want people to talk about you, then don't talk about them!" I have a theory.. that if everyone [as in EVERYONE meaning, nobody is excluded..] applies this, we can all get rid of gossip once and for all.

Let us strive to build each other up, and not pull them down with our words..
"So each of you must get rid of your lying. (*including gossip!*) Speak the truth to your neighbor. We are all parts of one body." - Ephesians 4:25

Oh, and.. for your information..
I am NOT doing a commercial. :P

Are You Lonesome Tonight?

**taken from my old devotional notes from "Make Your Day Count" [devotions for teens]
*I was going through my old devotional and message notes and I found this.. I thought I could just put it on here, seeing I don't have that much "inspiration" these days.. T___T
-dated: Aug. 2006 (*gasp!* --> bitter)
dedicated to them lonely people out there. [you know who you are] :D

"May your unfailing love be my comfort,
according to your promise to your servant."
-Psalm 119:76

Maybe you've heard of Elvis Presley's song "Are You Lonesome Tonight?" But did you know that you can be alone without being lonely?Being alone and spending time with God is always a pleasure. He's always with you. When You draw nearer to Him, He draws nearer to you.

**There is a difference between being alone, and being lonely;
Alone means: to be separate, apart, or isolated from others.
While lonely is: being affected with, characterized by, or causing a depressing feeling of being alone; lonesome.

You are never really alone. The Holy Spirit lives right inside you and is with you wherever you go! In Matthew 28:20 Jesus says, "I am with you always, even to the end of the age." And in Hebrews 13:5 He says, "I will never leave you nor forsake you." Wherever you go, He is with you.

**Knowing the fact that we are never alone gives us no right to be lonely at all! Because when you feel lonely, its as if you are denying the fact that Jesus is with you. You refuse to accept that He knows what you're going through, and He loves you with a perfect love.. So perfect, you do not need "anybody with skin on"

Maybe you don't have a boyfriend of a girlfriend right now. Maybe you've just broken up with someone and you are lonely. Jesus promised in John 14:18 that He wouldn't leave you comfortless, and in verse 16, He says that He has asked God to give you another Comforter. You can lean on Him when you need comfort.

Being alone doesn't have to mean you are lonesome. God cares. So go to Him.