Sunday, April 15, 2007

"Confused Yet Hoping"

God,

I dont fully understand, but I am putting my complete faith in You.
Lord, I love them. You know I do.. so I leave everything in Your Hands. I know you're going to work things out, make things right again. Just as you always do.
Im a bit afraid though.. im still doubting. But God, If this is not from you.. then take it away. I know you are bigger and greater than all of these things.. so who am I to even feel this way. I have no right Lord.
If You can move mountains, calm raging storms and raise people from the dead.. then I know you can touch hearts of stone, move people, mend broken relationships, bring back trust and make families whole again.
I know what I am saying is a bit out of line and selfish of me.. but you know Lord how much I love them. I know you love them even more than I do..
If there is a lesson to learn or a sin to avoid.. let it be known God, that this fighting would stop.
I dont get it God. One mistake. And that will cause them to stop talking to each other? now they cant stand being in the same room? and they pass each other by like complete strangers?
I dont want to see them like this.
All this childish-nonesense and bitterness. It all seems too familiar. Yet in someway, it is different.
A different commitment. A different responsibility.
I know that there is a reason for all of this.. so I'll just trust You God.
In Jesus' Name..
Amen

1 comment:

Mas. said...

Some relationships are like trees; strong, solid, growing bigger and stronger each day.

Some relationships are like the fruit borne of the tree. Sweet, beautiful. But tainted with a short life; and no end of trying can stay the rot once it comes.

If it is the tree, then it will bear the pain; and new wood will grow around the wound, making it strong again.

If it is the fruit, it must come to pass. Though, even in the fruit lie the seeds from which a fresh tree may spring again. Maybe stronger. Maybe harder. This time forever.

The cause of problems may be a single things; but somethings we can say "we forget", but somethings we find we can never forgive. And over time they return to haunt, to grow. Like a cancer unchecked. Destroying all that is healthy and good.

We are faulted. We make mistakes.
In the end we find our resolution.
I hope that it is found that it is like a tree. That the damage will heal, and new wood will form. But what will be, will be. Good or bad.

M