Nostalgia and Worries...

Walks on the beach, watching the sunset, staying up late, star-gazing, and massages..
these are only few of the things I miss the most.

Normally, I would say 'I'm going to miss..' but this summer was different. This summer I didn't get to go to the beach much; I wasn't even allowed to get out of the house. T__T

Just before school was about to end, I looked forward to numerous beach trips and just relaxing the day away..
And now that school is about to start again, I hang my head low in knowing the fact that my summers aren't what they used to be..
I guess I just got used to the fact that my summers were usually more.. EXCITING than what I had this year. Not that i'm complaining, or anything. It still was fun and all.. but not as adventurous as they were before.

In a nutshell, here's what I did during my summer:

I had 2 months of just getting up, eating, eating, eating, and sleeping. *ugh*

And now that its about to end I have yet to look forward to books, lectures and more books. Not to mention countless SC meeting, numerous application forms to fill out, schools to go to, tests to answer.. etc. etc. etc.
*double ugh*


Hassle, pare..

I have a feeling that this school year is going to get rough. Considering the fact that I'm the President of the Student Council, and that I find a way to keep my grades up. I'm going to have a hard time balancing my sched out.
(*So help me, God*)
Then theres the College Entrance Exams, but even before I can take that.. I have to fill out a "few" application forms and blah blah blah.. (oh the pressure.. T___T")

Can't you tell that I'm a nervous wreck?

To be honest, i shouldn't be nervous at all. I took a really expensive review class [Brain Train] which according to them, if I take it.. there may be an 85% chance I can still get into my dream school: The University of the Philippines. (ok ok.. i just made the percentage up. But they say that it'll help me.. somehow.)
Frankly, rather than calling their review center "Brain Train" I think "Brain Drain" would suit it better. (How corny can I get?)

So anyway.. what did i learn this summer?
Aside from finding more ways to entertain myself as I sit around and do nothing, or when I am preoccupied with something, learn how to make soup out of my brain..
I learned something very valuable..

As you can all see, i've been very [uhh, whats the word?] anxious lately. I still can't grasp the fact na.. [OMG?! I'M 4th YEAR HIGHSCHOOL NA?!?!] And that after this year.. [OMG I'M GOING TO COLLEGE?!] And then the "what if?" questions start to pop into my head.
What if I fail this year?
What if I don't pass the entrance exams?!
What if I suck as a President of the Student Council?!

But during the last day of our brain train our language proficiency teacher shared to us something that I will never forget.. :D
"His will will never leave you where His grace cannot keep you."
Talk about timing! This was the kind of "quotable quote" I needed to build up my confidence again.

So.. here I am, ready to face a new year. I really don't know what lies ahead but I trust in Him. I know that wherever He leads me.. i'll do just fine. :D
I'm not expecting anything great for me this year. But i'll keep hoping. :D