2 Corinthians 5:13

He's been talking to me all week.
I thought everything was just a dream, until I actually had a dream about it.

Last Friday night, I dreamt I was at this strange old house. Inside, were huge serpents scattered all over. I walked around the house, careful not to disturb or even come close to any of them, but for some reason, I wasn't afraid of these serpents. They were more afraid of me. I was with a friend (I forgot who) and that friend was afraid. A serpent tried to attack this friend, but I stood in between them and it backed away.
We came to the house to play Hide and Seek. There were other children there, all wanting to play with us. While the taya counted to a hundred, we all ran and hid all over the house. The children dragged us to the left and to the right. They brought us all over the house and showed us the best hiding places so we could not be found. But I didn't listen. I dragged my friend with me and stepped inside the Master's bedroom and hid under the bed. We giggled because we found the best hiding spot. It took hours for our friends to find us.
Suddenly, just as how all dreams seem to shift, there was a bright white light that appeared and scanned the house. Sort of like a light that came from a Lighthouse. It was searching. It was as if it was joining our little game. Three times this light appeared. The first caused mass destruction. We were asked to evacuate. When it happened again, we were more prepared. We had been waiting for it. Expecting it to come. However, this time it did not cause destruction- it completely changed the surrounding. Everything was made new. Fresh. It felt good. The third and last time it appeared, it felt like a tractor beam. The light got a hold of me and I felt myself being pulled upward, to where it was coming from. It felt good. I felt happy.

I woke up.

Lord knows what that dream was all about. But I wanted to go back to it. It felt so real. Especially during the part when I was being taken up into Heaven.
I got up from bed that Saturday morning and did my quiet time before getting to my chores. I had to leave as soon as possible since I needed to watch a play in Greenbelt 1.

Nakakahiya, mejo nagmamadali pa nga ako noon. I remember half-heartedly praying "Lord, what do you want to tell me today?" But I was rebuked by the Holy Spirit when I read my devotional for that day..
God was still keeping His eye on me. He wasn't done talking to me yet. I know it wasn't a coincidence that I was led to turn to 2 Corinth 11:13-15 that day:
"For such men are false apostles, deceitful workmen masquerading as apostles of Christ. And no wonder, for Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light. It is not surprising then, if his servants masquerade as servants of righteousness. Their end will be what their actions deserve."

"Be on red alert today, Deb."
"But how, Lord? I'm not exactly sure how to be ready. I might mess up again. The Enemy could take advantage of me by reminding me of the wretched life I lived before."

Then I read Galatians 5:1- "It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm then, and do not let yourself be burdened again by a yoke of slavery."
God reminded me that He left me a Manual on how to operate my life. And lately, being the Pinoy that I am, I haven't been consulting it and have been trying to fix things myself.

"Stand firm, Deb. You'll do fine Just trust Me."

I closed in prayer that day, ready to face the world. But a question still unanswered remained in my heart: How exactly do I feed my Holy Discontent? I need Action Points! I was aware of my hunger, but I didn't know exactly how to deal with it. I felt incapable.


This, God answered for me today, when at church I heard a wonderful message by Pastor Rick Warren. (on video nga lang haha) It was about surrendering what you had- your identity, income and influence- surrendering yourself to God so that He may use you. In our hands, these things are merely nothing, but when we present ourselves to God, He can work miracles in and through us. And then Rick Warren mentioned something about feeding your Holy Discontent.

BOOM! [pare] (hahaha!)


He hit the nail right on the head when he shared the 5 biggest problems in the world and what we can do about it. Everything starts when we care for the people God cares about. When we begin to realize it's not about us at all and surrender ourselves to Him, and when our hearts break for what breaks His. To live for Him is the main purpose of life.
-And people have been forgetting that. People have gone back to living life on "self-center" as Max Lucado calls it.

It is my prayer that the eyes of our hearts will be opened to this reality and we actually DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. Our world is slowly but surely, going to waste. People are turning away from God and are forgetting Him left and right. Some don't even know about Him. There are people who are poor, sick, illiterate and lonely. It is up to us to show them, introduce to them a God who is exactly in the business of making miracles. We might not need one ourselves, but there are people who are in dire need of miracles everyday. We have a God who is our provider, our healer and gives us wisdom. More importantly we have a God who loves us in spite of everything we've done. No matter what kind of background we may have. And people have no idea that He exists!

If you think about it... We were once like that. Someway, somehow, we needed love and attention. Someone who could make everything better. Or at least tell us that despite our hardships, everything will be well in the end. And one fateful day, someone introduced us to Him. Or for others, He found us Himself- The Lover of our souls and the Author of Salvation.

And your life was never the same.

Don't we want that for our friends and family members who are lost? Don't we want to save them? Let them understand and love our Daddy the way we do? I know its scary... but is it scary to get rejected for a moment for doing something you know is right or to suffer guilt for eternity watching these people suffer because you didn't do anything about it?
There is a saying that most of the time, the only Bible people will ever get to read is your own life. What kind of life are you living? Is it one that pleases God? Is it one that will not let people question your relationship with Him and will not bring other Christians down with you? Would you rather be accepted now and suffer for an eternity along with them? There are no backsliders. Only false believers.

WAKE UP! WAKE UP, EVERYONE! Snap out of it now before being left behind does that for you. To the lost, repent. And to those who know, may we be so moved to pray that dangerous prayer... "Lord, Use me." Let us refuse to stop praying it until we are fully spent by Him.